I hate all of them!
They sent me to my death!
That was meme queenBritney Hayneson Thursdays edition ofBig Brother Reindeer Games.
Britney Haynes on ‘Big Brother Reindeer Games’.CBS
And her death in the game did, indeed, seem certain.
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Frankie Grandebested the maze and pickedXavier Pratherto follow.
The victory left Britney as a sobbing mess crawling around on fake snow in disbelief and celebration.
Britney Haynes on ‘Big Brother Reindeer Games’.Sonja Flemming/CBS
(Like, Im crying in a candy cane forest!)
BRITNEY HAYNES:Everyone thought that they gave me this.
This was something I brought myself and I snuck it into the house and wore it intentionally.
Britney Haynes on ‘Big Brother Reindeer Games’.Sonja Flemming/CBS
This is the one thing that I wore that they didn’t give to me.
And you haven’t taken it off since.
Alright, let’s start at the beginning of this whole Jack Frost hamster wheel maze situation.
Britney Haynes on ‘Big Brother Reindeer Games’.CBS
I was not happy about it.
I did not want him to do that.
So much of it got cut down and so much of it wasn’t shown.
Britney Haynes on ‘Big Brother Reindeer Games’.Sonja Flemming/CBS
I really think this might be our chance to send him out.
Everyone was threatened by him.
Everyone thought he was a great competitor and he was on everyone’s radar, especially Frankie’s.
And Frankie was like, this could be our chance to get him.
As far as protecting me, I don’t really think that Frankie had a better choice.
So then Xavier gets by and then he has to make a decision.
Everyone really got along for the most part on the show.
There was no bad blood or deep resentment or anything like that.
So we’re down to seven people in this episode, and they have a four-person strong alliance.
After Nicole’s safe, after Frankie wins, I’m a sitting duck.
It felt, in that moment, [as if] I was begging for my life.
Why put me in when you might beat me, and you might’t necessarily beat these other people?
So It looked like you’d pretty much lost all hope before getting on that wheel.
Is that a pretty accurate description of your mood at that point?
It felt like I was just straight up sent home with a three-and-a-half-minute purgatory.
That’s what it felt like to me in that moment.
So when he says my name, I’m just like, Whatever.
I stormed out of the house.
I slammed the back door.
I truly believed that there was just no chance.
Yeah, I was actively not watching the time while I was doing it at first.
Is this how much time I’ve gone over the three-and-a-half minutes?
That’s what it looked like.
It looked like more confusion and disbelief than happiness.
A hundred percent disbelief.
I could not believe my eyes.
I was like, “Oh my God, I’m going to survive this!
I was absolutely shocked.
One of the weirdest, most surreal moments of my life.
Very rarely have I had a big victory.
And that felt really, really big.
It felt like surviving death.
It was crazy and very weird because it’s eerily quiet.
There’s no cheering, there’s no applause, there’s no noise.
No one is speaking.
No one is clapping.
But it’s dead silent, with the exception of my sobbing echoing off the walls.
There’s an elf standing there.
It was the weirdest, most surreal feeling.
And the lights are super bright and the ground was white.
It was honestly the Twilight Zone.
This is me alone on fake snow, bright lights, white ground, crying.
How many memes do you think you created during that?
Hopefully not very many.
I wasn’t looking super cute.
I don’t have a great cry face, so let’s maybe stick to something cuter.
Alright, so you win.
You’re losing your mind.
You’re back from near-certain death.
But now you have to make a decision.
So once you survived, was it always going to be Danielle?
No, no, no, definitely not.
It was not always going to be Danielle.
So I was working really, really hard on my relationships with Frankie and Nicole.
And then I was also working really hard trying to find an ally on that side as well.
But they seemed so tight.
I felt like I was getting nowhere.
I could build some trust with Taylor.
I thought that she would see it more as, “I really want to work with you.
I don’t want you to leave.
I want you here.
I want to work with you.
I want to do this girl’s thing.
I want to do this, so I don’t even want to risk putting you in.”
I was seeing that as an opportunity to build that with her.
So I saw not choosing them as a path for me to make some inroads on that side.
You see that she really kind of has protections on both sides.
No one is coming after her.
We were both trying to do the same thing socially.
Because I had started winning competitions and she had done the work socially.
So is that true, or were you just not convinced?
Maybe I was her number one.
That very well may be true, but it didn’t feel like it to me there.
The feeling that I had there was that her and Xavier were each other’s number ones.
It just seemed like they were super tight, that they were super close.
I didn’t think that she was necessarily coming after me.
And I don’t know if I was her number one, maybe I was.
But to me, in that moment, it very much didn’t feel that way.
It very much felt that that four was super solid and super strong.
So take me through your mental state as you put Danielle in there.
And she could eviscerate me with one look.
Yeah, I was definitely worried about that.
But I could say the same thing no matter who I had put in there.
If they were going to come back into the house, they were going to be really angry.
Not Taylor though, right?
And that’s not how it went down.
But that was sort of the goal for me.
If I could go back and do it in retrospect, I would do it completely differently.
That would’ve absolutely been the way to go.
I completely messed that up by not wanting to go in.
And Nicole gave me the option, if you want to go in, I’ll put you in.
And I saw that hamster wheel and said, Uh, no thank you.
Did your kids watch it?
My kids watched it, and I have to tell you, pretty unimpressed.
I feel like no one was giving me what I wanted out of the moment.
I felt that very much from my extended family and from my friends and from the public at large.
However, my own family was really just like, Good job.
Is it snack time?
Which is just so par for the course for me in my life in general.
It’s what I came to do, and I’m going to give it my best shot.
Yeah, doesn’t matter, not impressed with anything.
That also contributed to it as well.
And it was sad.
It was similar to in season 14, we all got rid of Janelle.
The house voted Janelle out Janelle being my favoriteBig Brotherplayer to ever play the game.
Oh, it was awful.
It was like the worst I ever felt.
She built the backbone of the Diary Room.
She was someone that I watched and loved and loved her gameplay.
I love to watch a ruthless, vicious player in general.
I have watched her seasons.
I know the key in of player she is.
If her and Xavier are talking about getting rid of me, no hesitation.
She will get rid of me.
She was like the original Diary Room queen.
And so it was a really, really hard and really complicated decision.
Was it the right decision?
I don’t know.
Well, it contributed to one of the best episodes of TV all year.
We were all saying the whole time, “Why didn’t we just do the elf job?”
That is so much better and easier.
They get to come in with their cute outfits and their scrolls.
They’re getting to actually enjoy this beautiful ambiance.
It was so freaking stressful.
Our bodies were breaking.
Our brains were breaking.
We were breaking down.
It was so hard.
The most emotionally taxing show I’ve done.
