“There isnt even really as much as somebody walking by and putting their hand on you.”

“We dont live there, you know.

Were living in Salem,” she explained, referring to the soap’s fictional small-town setting.

Deidre Hall, Drake Hogestyn

Deidre Hall and Drake Hogestyn pose on ‘Days of Our Lives’.NBCU Photo Bank/NBCUniversal via Getty

And I miss that for him…

I will sometimes just be sitting on the set and thinking, ‘John is gone!

Oh my gosh!'"

Deidre Hall, Drake Hogestyn

Deidre Hall and Drake Hogestyn on ‘Days of Our Lives’.Evans Vestal Ward/Peacock

“When I screen tested with him I knew,” she recalled.

“They called me upstairs and said, ‘So there’s seven actors here, what did you think?

It was sort of, ‘Oh, kindly say Drake.'”

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Hogestyn’s pancreatic cancer diagnosis wasn’t revealed until shortly before his death.

She remembers that “the resounding comment was, ‘Not Drake!’

Drake, I mean, the healthiest, most positive… and then there it was.”

Hogestyn’slastDayssceneaired on Sept. 9, three weeks before his death.

Hall reflected that “to the audience, we feel like they are a family.”

So she encouraged viewers to “stick with us, we’re always gonna be your family.”