“I was a runaway.
I sold cocaine at the age of 15.
I never really had a stable life.”
Kendra Wilkinson.Credit:Steve Kondiles/Bauer-Griffin/GC Images
She continued, “And so I went looking for the wrong things.
I went looking for dark things.
I went looking for fun.
Kendra Wilkinson and Hugh Hefner in 2004.Steve Kondiles/Bauer-Griffin/GC Images
And I’m not saying that everything I did was dark and wrong.
Still, Wilkinson felt stable and protected during her stay there.
“So in that case, I was safe.
Kendra Wilkinson.Mark Sullivan/WireImage
I was in a safe environment.
I was healthy, eating salads every day, working out every day, no drugs every day.”
Wilkinson also recognizes that the Playboy culture had a lasting impact on her.
“Was I sexualized?
Absolutely,” she said.
“Did that cause me problems later in life?
So, you know, choices there are consequences for every choice you make.”
She elaborated, “I struggle still to this day with my relationships and my views on sex.
Like, you have a little bit of a problem when it comes to thinking of sex.'”
Wilkinson later added that she thinks she moved out of Hefner’s home at the right time.
“And it was the golden years of my life.
And it was the right timing, you know.
I found myself just, you know, so bored at the Playboy Mansion.
I was just like, ‘I’m ready to leave this place.
I’m ready to start a family.'”
“And it took every ounce of my soul.
Like, that’s why they call it, ‘Sell the soul [to] the devil.’
I sold my soul to the goddamn devil.”
She continued, “I have a lot of regrets when it comes to that.
Listen to Wilkinson’s full interview above.
