The ousted player also reveals whom she voted for at Lulu’s first Tribal Council.
The stars were not aligned for astrology fanKendra McQuarrieonSurvivor 45.
First, Kendra and island BFFKellie Nalbandianplotted against one tribemateBruce Perreault.
Kendra McQuarrie on ‘Survivor 45’.CBS
And when he won immunity, they voted against another one in Jake OKane.
Why did Belo self-destruct?
And what else happened out there that we did not see on TV?
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We spoke to Kendra to get the full scoop on everything that went down out on the island.
you might watch the entire interview above, or read it below.
I got to trust that they’re going to take Jake out instead of me."
Kendra McQuarrie on ‘Survivor 45’.Robert Voets/CBS
And I was really hoping it was Jake.
Not in a personal way, but obviously I want to stay in the game.
I literally had my hand on my bag ready to reach in for it.
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What was up with that?
You were very focused on getting Dee out, so why did you eventually shift your target to Jake?
Could you just not get anyone on board for a Dee vote?
Kendra McQuarrie on ‘Survivor 45’.Robert Voets/CBS
I think the Dee vote could have potentially happened if there wasn’t a loss of votes.
Now I am going to be 100 percent aligned with him.
You seemed pretty fed up with Bruce after the merge and really wanted him out.
What was it like living with him out there?
Me and Bruce are just fundamentally pretty different people, but I just had a hard time.
It felt like it was really hard to work with him and bring in different ideas.
I feel like it only had to behisidea.
So me as a very open-minded, adaptable person, that’s something I really value.
And then to be met with kind of a wall was difficult for me as far as gameplay goes.
We had no idea what this was going to entail.
So it just kind of happened naturally the way things put together.
Breaking into threes, what are we going to do?
Because it hurt me just watching it.
I am a competitor through and through.
I know that might not come off so much in the show.
I am a little in my own world in a lot of ways, but I’m extremely competitive.
I will fight through anything to win, and I knew I needed to win that immunity challenge.
There was nothing else that was the only option for me at that point in time in the game.
And so I just went into it fighting.
During it, I really don’t even remember.
I was just like, “I just have to hold on no matter what.”
Everything kind of just leaves your mind and you’re just focused on holding for one second longer.
I would literally just go One second more, two seconds more.
That’s all that was going in my head just to make a run at keep those up.
It was hard, and props to them.
Yeah, I almost had regrets on not throwing the challenge because Bruce had a target on him.
Maybe things would’ve been different as far as votes go.
Some strays could have came my way.
EverySurvivorplayer that doesn’t win has a list of regrets, Kendra.
You’re not the only one.
Was that more after the fact where you’re like, Oh, I should have thrown that?
Or did you think either before or during, Hmm, should I throw this?
I had a small feeling in the back of my head.
Julie and I both talked about that.
We’re like, this could be a million-dollar chicken.
That’s what we called it.
I was like, Did we just mess up by not throwing this?
I’m a competitor, and to think about throwing something that’s just not in my blood.
I’m just going to fight through, and I want to play and I want to go hard.
So that’s just who I am.
You actually appeared more upset overKellies blindsidethan your own vote-out.
I’m very empathetic person, and so I could feel all of Kellies emotions.
She turned around and looked directly at me and I saw it in her eyes.
I was so angry.
So that’s what I look like when I’m seething.
If I’m frustrated or a little bit mad, I’m kind of more animated.
But when I am pissed off, really, really angry, I am blank in the face.
Can I call you Nostradamus?
All I know is what I know, Dalton.
And so yeah, a quit.
Eclipses are very time of a big transformation.
Whats something interesting that happened out there that never made it to TV?
Oh my God, I was so upset.
I was like, They cut my twist out!
So that’s kind of a fun thing.
Also, knowing that me and Emily connected over there as well.
Reba didn’t know that I was over there.
So bummed about that.
So I’m kind of running my mouth about it around camp at that time.
I actually cast a vote in Tree Mail before we went to Tribal Council, and I voted forBrandon.
I did not want Emily to leave.
She was like, Everyone’s against me.
I’m the only one being nice to her over here.
This is the best TV I’ve ever seen!
And it was incredible.
What an honor to be able to be there for that Lulu Tribal Council.
What did your biological father think when he saw you drinking that beer in his honor onSurvivor?
And that’s why I said it was unexpected.
It’s like, I see this beer and immediately you’re out there.
And not to mention I was, what, 14 days [out there]?
Not a lot of food and a beer and I was a little emotional.
So yeah, he was really stoked about it.
If you could go back and change anything about your game, what would it be?
I could feel it in my bones.
And that kind of manipulated me a little bit.
I just wanted to let them know.
