The player says “I have to find a way to come to terms with that.”
So on day nine, Sean decided to get off the ride.
Sean became the second person in just four episodes this season to quit the game at Tribal Council.
Sean Edwards on ‘Survivor 45’.Robert Voets/CBS
How does Sean respond to that?
When did the idea to quit first form?
And what would he have done if his tribemates had not voted him out, as requested?
Sean Edwards on ‘Survivor’.Robert Voets/CBS
We asked Sean all that and more.
Watch the full interview above or read it below.
SEAN EDWARDS:Yeah, Dalton, thank you for asking that question.
Sean Edwards, Hannah Rose, and Brandon Donlon on ‘Survivor 45’.Robert Voets/CBS
I’m loving being out here."
But every time I felt that throughout the game, I’d kind of push it down.
“No, I’m here for a reason.
The Lulu tribe on ‘Survivor 45’.Robert Voets/CBS
Push forward, push through.”
you oughta learn how to embrace it."
I’ll be your pizza.
Sean Edwards of ‘Survivor 45’.Robert Voets/CBS
Whatever you want me to be, I’m here for it."
And when Jeff asked that question of “What has thisSurvivorexperience meant for you?”
For whatever reason, that question just immediately triggered in me this automatic response.
It was like word vomit.
Honestly, I didn’t know what I was saying in the moment.
What do you make of that assessment?
Yeah, I certainly respect Jeff’s thoughts on the situation and how he was reading into it.
Because that is a very tall order to say, “Hey,Survivor, rewrite my life.”
It’s an impossible ask.
But that was the mentality I had.
That’s what I was going into the game with.
But I would say my reasons were just different than maybe what others perceive.
And that’s okay.
Instead, you go to Ponderosa to be with the other folks that were voted out.
So how did that factor into your thinking?
Yeah, no, excellent question.
And, of course, I knew that.
Like I said, it wasn’t this homesickness feeling.
It wasn’t like, “Oh, I missed my husband.
I want to see him, so I’m leaving the game”.
That wasn’t it at all.
And so again, I felt very at peace with my decision in that moment.
And it’s okay to have regrets.
So definitely, looking back, I wish I could have been more in that space.
I just wasn’t.
And I have to find a way to come to terms with that.
It’s really honest of you to say that, and clearly it was a very emotional decision.
All of us sometimes make emotional decisions and then later look back and second guess them.
And so I appreciate you being open and saying that you’ve had that experience.
I am just so glad that the episode has finally aired.
It’s finally out there because the past few months have been….
It’s been hard, because I want to hype up the show.
I’m still a super fan of the show.
I love the show.
I mean, everything about the experience was just absolutely magical.
Best nine days of my life, seriously loved it.
And so through the past few months, I’ve just been so excited for the show.
I just want it to air, I want people to see my story.
What are people going to say?
What’s it going to be like when it airs?"
Because you just don’t know what the edit’s going to look like.
And so there has been a lot of anticipation around it.
Was it hard to watch last night?
You said you didn’t know how it was going to look on screen.
Matt and I were watching with bated breath, like “What is going to be shown?
What’s going to happen?”
And so I really felt confident that the same would happen for my story as well.
Your tribe lost every single immunity challenge, and the marooning challenge.
There was a lot of drama on Lulu.
Yeah, great question, Dalton.
I have thought about that as well: Was my decision informed by mySurvivorexperience?
And I definitely did not have theSurvivorexperience I imagined I would.
What led me to this point?
Why am I here?
So it was those moments of failure that I think brought those things to my mind.
What would you have done if they had kept you and voted Sifu out anyway?
I have a lot have respect for the show.
No, I want to play this game.
I love this game.
I’m here to play."
What did you think was going to happen at that Tribal?
I did not think it was going to be me.
No, I absolutely did not think it was going to me.
I thought it was going to be Sifu the whole time.
So she had been talking about it.
I had had some thoughts throughout the game, but I never expressed those thoughts.
So yeah, I think that’s why we went to the vote, which I think was appropriate.
But for me, it was just the amazing connections with the people on my tribe.
I really made some authentic, genuine friendships.
Dee and I had so much great conversation.
Kaleb, Emily, Hannah, Brandon all of them.
So I wish more of my connections with my amazing tribe members could have been shown.
Obviously when it comes to the game, there’s disappointment.
The fans feel it.
You feel it, as we’ve talking about.
And I’m hoping that all of that has been strengthened as a result of this experience.
I cannot express with enough gratitude, my entire experience throughSurvivor.
TheSurvivorcrew and Jeff are absolutely nothing but kind and supportive.
And I have so much compassion and love for the show and for my experience.
