Tori Spellingis processing her divorce in real time and anyone listening can follow along.

“It’s public,” she says at the beginning of the episode.

S—, he’s at work.

Tori Spelling and Dean McDermott

Tori Spelling and Dean McDermott.Rodin Eckenroth/Getty

He’s at work, you guys, this sucks."

Spelling proceeds to leave McDermott a message: “Hey, it’s T. I know you’re working.

Can you call me?

Everything’s fine, the kids are fine.

But call me, like.

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The actress goes on to explain the proceedings.

“I just filed for divorce,” she says.

“I just got word from my lawyer that it’s public.

In the middle of discussing her children, Spelling receives a call back from McDermott during the recording.

I’m okay, how are you?”

she says on the call.

They’ve done it.

You have a lawyer?”

“Wait, it’s gonna be spunwhatway, that I had enough of you?”

What do you mean?

Representatives for McDermott didn’t immediately respond to EW’s request for comment Monday.

Immediately after the phone call on the podcast, Spelling describes McDermott’s side of the conversation.

“He was like, ‘Great, good, great.

“I don’t feel worth loving,” she adds.

“That’s the truth.”

Spelling goes on to detail the complexity of her relationship with McDermott.

“What is that, six months?

I was like, ‘Wow, he sees me.'”

“We had this fast and furious romance,” Spelling continues.

“I saw red flags.

Everyone talks about red flags.

I like saying that I like to make dresses out of red flags and then proceed.

And I just remember I could show him me.

And it wasn’t like the cute, giggly, ‘This what people want me to be.’

I could have some bad girl in me, and that was okay.”

Spelling also says that her marriage completely changed after having children.

But emotionally, I was it, like, ‘Tag, you’re it!’

I was the parent, and it was a lot of responsibility while also rebuilding a career.”

Listen to Spellings full podcast episode above.